This is something I posted on myspace a couple days ago...so...it is written from May 11...so, anything referring to "today" means may 11...

Well...it's official...after today, I have to say, being lonely sucks...I dunno why, I just feel so lonely...I need to be with someone...or at least...I want it a lot...I have feelings for a girl I know...but I don't know how to tell her... Normally, I blurted it out...but she's different... I want to be friends with her, which we are, and I'm afraid my saying anything will hurt our friendship...I've never had a real friend in a girl before...always wanted to...I just don't know what to do...This feeling of loneliness...is that what it is? Loneliness? The feeling that I'm all alone, even though I'm surrounded by people...that feeling where you feel helpless...You look around, see the people, and know you aren't alone, but then look at your feet, and feel as if you're the only one standing in the entire room. Is that loneliness? It's definitely not a good feeling...I hate it...I want to get rid of it...I just...don't know what to do...