EmilyAnnCoons 7 Report post Posted March 21, 2009 Ok, so, I think I finally figured myself out...and I want to get it off my chest and see if other people think the same (which would tell me if I'm right or not). As all of you know, I'm a male to female (commonly referred to as MtF) transexual. For those who don't know what that is, that means I'm a girl (yes, a girl, as in FEMALE) who is in a guy's body (still a girl! I just have a male body). As of late, I have been question my own sexual orientation and what exactly I am. After thinking about it, I think I figured out how it works. When I look at a guy, I think they are cute. I think they look nice, and sometimes I even get minor feelings for them, as in small crushes. I feel like this probably means I like guys and I think that, if I had a female body (which I am aiming to gain) then I could probably let myself be with a guy and actually be in love. However, this is where it's kind of confusing, but I think I have figured it out. When I look at girls, I get feelings, very minor, perhaps like a crush. However, I can't help but imagine certain parts of their body (guys, you know what I mean -nods- I shouldn't have go to into details :P). I then find myself thinking "Damn, she's pretty, I wish I could be as pretty as her." Which has brought me to believe I now know my true feelings towards women: I don't love them, and I could probably never love them, but I do look at them and envy them since they have what I want (the female parts) and don't have what I don't want (the male parts). So, in turn, I believe myself to be (if I can use the statement) "straight". If that confuses you, though, I will explain. I am a girl. As a girl, to be straight means to like guys. In turn, if I like guys, then I am straight. My outward body has nothing to do with whether I am male or female, just my inward self. Therefore, I believe myself to be female, and thus, as a girl, to like guys makes me straight. Thus, I am straight by definition of the fact I'm female. I just repeated myself like...3 times, didn't I? lol So, what does everyone think? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Jesse66126 4 Report post Posted March 21, 2009 OK,I think I get it. So as long as you're still anatomically male,you'll pretend to be a straight guy around other people. You want to be treated as a girl,not like the "Will" on "Will and Grace",is that right? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Nisage 31 Report post Posted March 21, 2009 @ Emily: So basicly you're a female soul that's stuck in a male body, and you have to lie to yourself and act as a "straight guy" when around others? Hope that didn't sound rude. @Jesse: What's this "Will" on "Will and Grace" thing? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Jesse66126 4 Report post Posted March 21, 2009 @ Emily: So basicly you're a female soul that's stuck in a male body, and you have to lie to yourself and act as a "straight guy" when around others? Hope that didn't sound rude. @Jesse: What's this "Will" on "Will and Grace" thing? "Will and Grace" is a comedy TV show on NBC about a gay man named "Will" and his ex girlfriend "Grace". It was kind of funny. At first Will was in denial about being gay,so he tries to sleep with Grace,and he could not get an erection for anything around her. So,basically,he told her,and she freaks out and says,"Am I that ugly??" So,He tries to explain it to her,and it only makes her more hysterical. She says,"So,Sleeping with me was so bad that you turned gay??" Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Nisage 31 Report post Posted March 21, 2009 Oh, that makes sence, and the term is homosexual since gay means happy, see... http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gay Well yeah it used to mean that until everyone added a stupid new meaning (or definition) for it. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Jesse66126 4 Report post Posted March 21, 2009 Oh, that makes sence, and the term is homo since gay means happy, see... http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gay Well yeah it used to mean that until everyone added a stupid new meaning (or definition) for it. By the way Homo means "Same". You meant "Homosexual" is the correct term. Yeah,the word gay has meant homosexual since 1902. Over 100 years ago. You can try to correct people,but trust me,it won't work. It's like trying to teach Americans the metric system,and to get rid of their stupid standard measurements even though no one in the rest of the world uses them. Or to get Americans to put their steering wheels on the right side of the car like that rest o the world instead of the left. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Nisage 31 Report post Posted March 21, 2009 It's homosexual, not homo? I thought homo was short for homosexual. Like I say, "You learn something new everyday, even if you don't think you do." Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Jesse66126 4 Report post Posted March 21, 2009 It's homosexual, not homo? I thought homo was short for homosexual. Like I say, "You learn something new everyday, even if you don't think you do." Homo is one of those scientific pre-fixes. Like there's Homosapiens,homophones(words that sound alike,but mean something different.) Like "Wood" and "Would". Phone is also a scientific suffix which means "sound". Interesting,huh? Tele means "move or moving" so combine those and you get "telephone". Also, "Omni" means "All". and "Potent" means "powerful",so combine those and you get "omnipotent." Another thing, in Final Fantasy 7,they had two skills with the same name. "Omni-Slash" and "Slash-All". The Japanese who made the game were bad at English,you know? Or maybe there was a error in translation. In which case,Omni-Slash was susposed to be Omnipotent Slash. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
EmilyAnnCoons 7 Report post Posted March 21, 2009 Well, I do have to pretend to be a straight guy around people...but what I mean by "straight" is that I'm a girl who likes guys, thus technically I am perfectly straight. This term would basically mean I'm not homosexual, or a lesbian, or whatever...that make more sense? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Nisage 31 Report post Posted March 21, 2009 @Emily: When I first read it, no. But after reading it a few times, yes it does. @Jesse: Oh I see, and I wonder if that's how they named the digimon Omnimon in Digimon the Movie (the first movie, where Wargreymon and Metalgarurumon combine together). Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Leon 55 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 Well, my dear Emmy, I will treat you as the girl you are. For all the guys out there who think me a freak, I got two letters for you: F.O. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Nisage 31 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 Since I always thought you were a girl, nothing will change. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kadski 0 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 Isn't that the same as bisexual then? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Jesse66126 4 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 Since I always thought you were a girl, nothing will change. Same. I never thought of you as a guy. You even type like a girl. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
EmilyAnnCoons 7 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 Isn't that the same as bisexual then? No, cause I like guys...to be bisexual you have to like both genders. I like girls, but I think it is only because I look at them and go "I wish I looked like that" It's basically straight with a low self-esteem as a girl. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Sherry 0 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 Well, my dear Emmy, I will treat you as the girl you are. For all the guys out there who think me a freak, I got two letters for you: F.O. what does F. O. mean? o.ö @ Emily I hope one day you find the right guy ;p ^ ^ i will see you as a sister ^^ Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Leon 55 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 what does F. O. mean? o.ö @ Emily I hope one day you find the right guy ;p ^ ^ i will see you as a sister ^^ F.O. is american slang for F*ck off. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Jesse66126 4 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 F.O. is american slang for F*ck off. Stop teaching Sherry your bad words,Leon! LOL Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Leon 55 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 Stop teaching Sherry your bad words,Leon! LOL Lol. If i don't tell her here, she'll ask me later >.> Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Nisage 31 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 Leon has a point there. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Sherry 0 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 why i should ask you again? if you say no, i wouldnt ask you again i would ask google ^-^ Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Leon 55 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 Lol. I'm certain. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Nisage 31 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 Good answer. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Sherry 0 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 i think google is smarter than leon q.q xd Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Nisage 31 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 I wouldn't go that far. Google can only do so much (and so little). Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Leon 55 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 i think google is smarter than leon q.q xd LOL you think so? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Sherry 0 Report post Posted March 22, 2009 LOL you think so? I think google is smarter than Jesus and maybe smarter than god ;p ^^ Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Jambo6c 0 Report post Posted March 26, 2009 Since I always thought you were a girl, nothing will change. Same. I never thought of you as a guy. You even type like a girl. Yeah I only found out about all this today, so this is the same for me - I'll see you as the same girl I've always seen you as :) Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Wyzrd 12 Report post Posted March 29, 2009 I think google is smarter than Jesus and maybe smarter than god ;p ^^ IDK Google is pretty smart. If you google my name you get page after pages of results. Try it. Head to google and type in Wyzrd :D. Now I warn you ahead of time. Some of them really aren't me. Like the porn site ones. Those aren't my. I have seen them when Googling myself. (googling myself lmao) Yea..... As far as Emmy. To me that would be being bi-sexual but in a previous post you said it wasn't so IDK then. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
EmilyAnnCoons 7 Report post Posted March 30, 2009 Well, to be bisexual you have to like both genders in a "love" fashion...I know I am pretty sure I like guys like that...but as for girls...all I do is look at them and wish I was prettier and wish I had the stuff they do that makes them pretty, so it's more of just having low self-esteem... Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
