Life just sucks it seems

[Dark Den 4]

I seem to be bad at almost everything i do. I tried to do my art hw today and i had to draw 5 drawings but i suck at art soo bad that i couldnt even draw one...so im gonna get a lot of scolding and what not tomorrow...stupid art hw :( . I tried to do some of my poetry hw but i cant make a single damned line with 10 syllables that rhyme with some other damned line of 10 syllables. I cant sing,cant play any instruments, not too good at any sports,cant draw and my handwriting sucks,cant learn any programming cuz my memory is like crap etc etc etc....

 

Most of my friends just lol at me cuz i am bad at things and no one even tries to help.

 

Life just sucks it seems for me...all this shit is putting me in a really bad mood where i wanna destroy things and i more or less lost faith in my God.

 

:62:

 

 

Dont know what to do....stupid internet so slow...bored and angry 90% of the time

[Chief 30]

Patience, young one.

You know how long it too me to sharped my web design skills? 7 years, and I'm still learning.

Graphic design? 5 years, and still learning.

Pixel art? 2 years, and I still sort of suck, lol.

 

I do other things as well, and they also took years to sharpen the skills for them. Its never too late to pick something up and go with it, but it takes a long time to get good at it. Some people are born with a natural talent for some things, but others, like myself, worked hard at them.

 

I know you've probably worked very hard at everything, but the key here is to pick one for a while, and focus on that single thing in order that you may sharpen your skills with it.

 

I know, everything feels like a huge burden right now, I know how that feels. I had clinical depression, grades 6-8m and I was pretty darn close to thoughts of suicide. Everything was going wrong in my life, but now that I'm out of that, I can tell you. Life has its ups and downs, and I was in a down. a very deep down that I expect won;t ever happen again. I took that opportunity to learn, and here I am, with about 3 different areas of talent, and about 3 things within each area.

 

I don;t know exactly what to type, but read this; Never give up. Never. Life may smack you around sometimes, but you gotta learn to smack it back, haha.

As for your faith, I feel I can help you with that, but I would recommend a private discussion :/

 

ps:

Hooray for RMXPU being an outlet for advice! lolololol

[Leophard 0]

Well, although I can understand why you made that post... But there's really not much bad about your life, if you compare it to others. I mean, sure, being in a downer because you can't think of anything for your homework sucks, but there's no point in dwelling on it. Instead, try to do something fun; It may just give you the inspiration you need. Or perhaps you can find something on the internet that can help you out.

And if you can't sing, well, that's just a natural flaw that most people have, and you should accept it. As for being bad at the rest, why not practise to get better? Nobody is naturally bad at playing an instrument or bad handwriting - People who are good at it have just practised right and much to perfect it.

Do your friends laugh at you because of it? Screw them, or use it as encouragement to push yourself harder. Or find some better friends who are actually willing to help you out.

 

I don't want to sound rough, but really, your life doesn't sound hard at all. I for one have gone through the same problems, with my entire family suffering from permanent diseases: My father has (a likely inheritable form of) Parkinson's, which you'll find is really a much harsher disease then just shivering if you read up about it. My brother has a permanent intestine disease, which has him stuck on medicine for the rest of his life. It will likely worsen as well, which means that he'll either need more or better medicine in the future, likely soon already.

As for me, I suffer from chronic reflux. It's a complicated disease, but to be brief I'll name which things I can no longer do for the rest of my life:

 

-Eat any fried, salty or other fatty stuff (Practically everything but meager food and dry bread)

-Drink alcohol or fizzy drinks (Which only leaves water, milk and fruit juice)

-Use caffeine

-Sleep for a night straight

-Stay up late

-Spend 24 hours without stomach pains or cramps

-Live without permanent nausea

-Do sports

-Watch scary movies

-Eat breakfast without having to fight throwing up

 

Take me as an example to do things which you actually can do, if you'd like. But I will say, and I'm sorry if this hurts, that I hate people who whine while they go through everyday trouble which everybody has. Unless you have a permanent illness as well of course, then I'd cut you some slack.

Edited October 26, 2010 by Leophard

[Noob Saibot 38]

Poems don't need to rhyme and if someone says they do then should learn to write.

[Chief 30]

bad handwriting

 

Actually, I was born with naturally bad handwriting, lol. its called Dysgraphia:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dysgraphia

 

lol

[Wyzrd 12]

Naw you don't suck at everything. Just as Chief said you need to pick one thing and go with it for a while.

 

As Kage pointed at..Poetry does not need to rhyme at all. You could read some of my poetry if you wanted. I never worry about rhyming it. There is three of them on here. http://www.rmxpunlimited.net/forums/blog/2-wyzrds-blog/

 

And here is another one real quick.

 

Better To Have Never Loved

Better to have loved, or to never have loved,

Me, personally, better to have never loved,

Because then your heart, would never be shattered,

And you could never lose, the one that mattered,

It's impossible to miss, what you never had,

Sure love is gracious, and filled with beauty,

Then again, you never loved, you never know,

To never have loved, would be the best.

[synchronicity 6]

Truthfully everyone goes through what you are right now. You're frustrated with everything and the harder you try, the more frustrated you get. That's perfectly normal, and it WILL pass (just like it WILL probably come back again at a later point, because we all have our ups and downs. It's life.)

 

Poetry doesn't come easily to everyone, but as was previously mentioned, not all poetry has to rhyme. You should look up different forms of poetry (unless your teacher has specified which format you are supposed to use) and see which you find easiest. There's free verse and acrostic, to name two of the (I find) easiest.

 

Even people who can sing and play instruments need to practice. It's not a big deal if you can't sing, because while it might feel cool to be good at it, it won't really get you anywhere in life unless you're intending to pursue a music career. As for an instrument, you have to practice to get good at that. I started playing the flute in the seventh grade, and I was so bad that I HATED music class, I HATED school, because I couldn't get a sound out of the instrument and I didn't want to have to go to music class anymore to just be frustrated. But I kept at it (because I had to) and ended up becoming a total band geek, took music every year after that, including a fifth year of highschool (the unofficially named "grade 13") and I actually got to be pretty good. Not "let's join a huge symphony!" good, of course, but still good enough to enjoy it a lot. And that's six years of music, five years of band practice once a week after school.

 

The only way anything can get better is if you take a deep breath, stop feeling frustrated and sorry for yourself, and try again. You don't just magically get good at things, no matter how easy other people make it look. It's easy for them because they worked to get good at something, and I'm not saying you're not - you're just allowing yourself to get frustrated and lose focus. Tell your friends that you really want to get better at whatever it is they can help you with, and if they still laugh, well, I hate to say it, but they don't sound like very good friends.

 

If you're having trouble in your classes, like with your art/poetry, ASK YOUR TEACHERS FOR HELP. Seriously, they're supposed to get paid to teach, not babysit. Make them do their job.

[Dark Den 4]

@Chief: Thanks im gonna try my best to get through all this

 

@Leophard: Guess my life's not as bad as yours though i hardly ever get to stay up late or eat junk food

 

@Kage Kazumi: I needed to make the poem rhyme cuz it was a sonnet for my hw which i gotta finish today evening

 

@Wyzrd: The rhyming was only cuz it was my hw or else it wouldnt have bothered me much and that poem you wrote is great

 

@Synchronicity: Hope these times do pass. Those friends are all i got so if i screw them then im gonna be all alone which i find is worse. Guess i should ask my teacher with help but theres hardly any time to ask

[synchronicity 6]

Oh, I'm not suggesting you stop bothering with those friends - they're your friends for SOME reason, so they can't be all bad :) But it wouldn't hurt to try and make friends with other people too. Asking a student in your class who you know does well in that subject could be a start.

 

I say this like it's easy, but speaking as someone who is very shy and can't make friends unless THEY come to ME first... I know it's not.

 

As for there hardly being any time to ask, there's always time. You just have to make it. You might not be able to during class, but that's why you stay during your break or your lunch for a few minutes, or schedule a time to get some help at a later day and set that aside for that meeting only. This has the benefit of not only helping you with your course work, but also showing initiative to your teacher who will take that into consideration when grading you. Teachers like students who try their best and who try to get help if they need it. If you're struggling, but never ask for help, they have little sympathy for you when there are other students who do everything in their power to get the best grade possible for them.

 

You could check out a rhyming dictionary online, which I don't believe should be against the rules of your teacher. Then you just need to write out the first two lines (because if you're doing a sonnet, the rhyming scheme starts out AB, meaning those two do NOT rhyme with one another) of whatever your topic is. Then the third line has to rhyme with the first, so you would look at the last word and then consult the rhyming dictionary to see what words rhyme with it.

 

Just a rhyming dictionary that I've used in the past: http://www.rhymezone.com/

 

Of course, doing up a search on google or some other search engine might bring up more. When I used it, I just clicked the first link that came up :P

 

Then you want to rhyme your fourth line with your second line, so you repeat the process until you're at the end of the rhyming scheme :)

 

As for getting it to be ten syllables, one strategy you might find helps is to not worry about it at first and just write the lines out the way they come to you. Then you can look back over the poem and figure out ways to rephrase things to make it longer, adding in a word here or there.

Edited October 28, 2010 by synchronicity

[Wyzrd 12]

As he said it. It's really not that hard to write poetry to rhyme either. Then again I write music so maybe it comes to me easier. Either way if you need help with writing poems, you can contact me, I'll help ya out.

[Dark Den 4]

well luckily after a long time i was able to finish the sonnet. Thanks synchronicity for the help and if i ever need help with the a poem i will be sure to ask your wyzrd :)

Heres the poem

 

Lonely

All alone in this wretched world of mine

Hatred growing in my burning heart

But to everyone I say I am fine

Though I really want to tear it all apart

 

Life goes never endingly on and on

As I count the miserable days away

Till the day when all of you are gone

Lonely I live to die another day

 

I wish this loneliness left me to be

So I could enjoy my life with a friend

And then the world could see a happy me

So I hope im not lonely till the end

 

But this loneliness persists to haunt me

So lonely I live never to be happy

 

 

Oh and today i had my first kiss EVER from my gf :biggrin_002:

It was great :)

[Wyzrd 12]

The poem was great I enjoyed it. I related to it to which is always a plus.

 

Glad you had that kiss.

 

 

 

 

 

Also, life ain't that bad. According to your profile, your only 14. You have a long way to go. There will be plenty of bumps in the road man. Just keep your head up and walk forward.

[Dark Den 4]

Gf and i had to break up T_T

Her parents found out and well they punished her for having a bf and hit her etc T_T

So we cant go on being bf and gf

sad...... :(

[Wyzrd 12]

It happens. If you knew how many girls parents made them break up after finding out who I was. Life goes on. Things happen.

[Dark Den 4]

Her parents wont let her have bf who ever it may be sadly :(

They are just evil she herself calls them b*tches

Her parent hit her hate her etc :(

[Dark Den 4]

Sorry for the double post.

 

But i am feeling sad again :( . My gf (or ex now) has gone from loving me too hating me now, i dont know why. After we had to break up she said we could still be friends and never called or spoke to me for week now :(

I feel lonely nowadays. As soon as i come home it seems like all my friends are gone. No one comes online on any site anymore. Been 3 weeks anyone called me to talk. I have no friends near by. I only live with my parents and we don't have very long or fun conversations at all.

When i am lonely i feel sad and i have nothing to do so i jsut spend my days listening to songs, hardly speaking cuz i got no friends to talk to at home.

 

Only in school its a bit of fun but even there no one seems to trust me. Everyone tells each other secrets but no one tells them to me so i cant take part in most of the conversations. I am still wondering why they never tell me cuz i have never told any one any secrets that i have come to know, instead they just tell a few people and those people arent even trustworthy :( .

 

I'm sad.....lonely......bored...time goes by but i dont seem to care anymore

[FranklinX 37]

I am sorry you are not happy with the direction your life is currently in. I suggest you find what makes you happy. Find your talent. Try new things to see if you will enjoy them. You are very young and should go out to get experience.

[nanou-gr 5]

hey boy, you;re just 14!! relax, life is beuatiful! when i was your age i was living in a tiny village full of nasty old people, i had no fiends and all i was good at was studying and studying and studying. well, time passed. i started trying out things, grew older and suddenly nothing was the same. i bet you have a lot of things that you're actually good at, but you dont appreciate them! maybe you thing they're too common, or too rare to take into consideration, but nothing is common or rare. everyone is specia, and i'm sure you're special too! don't give up! just keep trying and experimenting! and, keep in mind, sometimes friends are really mean. well, they might not even understand it, but, if something makes you feel bad, you better get away from it! maybe ome new friends make you feel more appreciated and reveal new parts of you! (oh, the end of my story was actually really good. i kept studying as hard as i can, went to high school and made some awesome freinsd, and then i got to study what i really loved to do for a living!) DONT give up! life's actually good!

[Dark Den 4]

I try to make the best of my life but people just keep letting me down. I dont expect anything big from them i just want them to be good friends. I remember once when i was pretty happy but had nothing to do so i got on facebook to chat with friends. There was only one person online, and when i chatted with her she just said bye to me but still stayed online and chatted with other people, i asked her why and she just said that she had said bye to me. That kinda got me feeling down.i know i could just ditch all my friends but then again i am lonely already and that would just make things worse.

[nanou-gr 5]

oh please! those are not friends! this really sucks i think! just do yourself a favour and stop being so depressed. you dont deserve it! really!! think of all the little things tha make you happy and try to appreciate them. enjoy everything as much as you can! and let go of the rest. you're too young to fell so sorry...;(

[Dark Den 4]

Yea not great friends but they are all i have.I try to be happy most of the time by remembering all the small things that make me happy but those things seem to be getting fewer and fewer. I hardly have anything fun to do to enjoy. The only good thing that happened is me and me ex-gf talked a bit and the results were good the bad thing is one of my favorite friends left me. Also been a painful week, got a few cuts from playing football, banged my knee on the door by mistake which made it painful to walk and had a very painful head ache today. But things could be worse i guess...

[FranklinX 37]

Dump your fake friends and go find real friends. It is more hurtful to have fake people in your life, than it is to not have anyone at all.

[nanou-gr 5]

i couldnt agree more! face friends are only there to make you miserable. when you keep them away, at least they cant hurt yuo. just be careful not to hurt yourself either!

[LNER fan 1]

Another thing to remember: The universe tries so hard to destroy humanity, but about 500,000 years later, we're still around. Keep that in mind, and let out a nice resounding "YEAH! F**K YOU UNIVERSE!" every day. Shouting makes you feel better.

[Decadenttia 2]

Life is great. People are the real problem.

 

Joking apart, I've been living life for a few decades and considering that I'm one of these cynical goths I still think life is worth living. You just need to discover its secrets.

Don't like what you see? Think about what can you change. Some things are inevitable but some other are only yours.

[Free To Play 3]

Dont know what to do....stupid internet so slow...bored and angry 90% of the time

 

Such is youth. There's nothing you can do but accept that until you gain independence from your elders and make a niche for yourself.

[LNER fan 1]

Her parent hit her hate her etc :(

 

I don't have the full story, but it sounds like you may be dealing with domestic abuse. That's something you could get the authorities involved with. Can you tell us any more? I don't want to make any assumptions.

[Dark Den 4]

Sorry for the late reply. :sweatdrop:

 

I guess you guys can forget about my gf now, seems (not fully sure) that she didnt like me but like some one else :unsure: :mellow:

 

Oh and thank you everyone for all the advice ^_^